An open door. As we sit on the other side of this open door we prayed about, it feels like a free fall straight off a cliff! In my prayers about this move, I had imagined standing at the top of a mountain with a closed door before us. I had said to the Lord if this was His will and He opened the door, we would jump with open arms in great faith- trusting Him to work out all of the details that lie ahead. Man I had no idea how hard that would be!!
The other night I had this dream. It was like the Apocalypse or something. In my dream, I awoke in bed to the doorbell ringing. As I looked at the clock I realized it was 1:30 am so I tried calling 911 in fear of why someone would be frantically ringing our doorbell at this hour in the morning. The line was disconnected. As I peeked out the window, I saw this immense crater right outside the front door of our house. The black hole was everywhere though. Somehow I realized that as you jumped into this abyss, you would die and go to Heaven. The world was ending all around us as the earth was caving in on itself!! My husband and I and our 4 kids were scurrying around trying to find all of our family members and I remember walking with our youngest who is 7- as he and I climbed down this set of stadium stairs where the crater opened up at the bottom. My son confidently let go of my hand at the end of the stairs, and as I tried to grab him in immense fear, he turned to me and calmly yelled, “I’m going to see Jesus!” I stood helpless as I watched him jump without a flinch….childlike faith. I was trying to find my husband as I ran around sharing Jesus with those all around me, and this realization suddenly hit me. This was like my prayers for the open door. We were standing at the top of this scary cliff and all we had to do was hold hands and jump- trusting God to work out the details!!
Crazy dream I know!! But how relevant of a reminder it was to me that even after prayers are answered, the Lord wants us to continue to trust Him and remember that He is in control! It is easy to say that we trust Him in the midst of life’s craziness- but to actually let go and surrender to Him in all of lifes’ moments….that is the struggle. Many details of this life changing move have been altered when a prayer for one thing has gone unanswered and instead the Lord has answered in His own way. So far His way has been better than our way every single time! God’s ways are ALWAYS best!! If only I would just keep my hands open in sweet surrender and allow God to be God! To trust Him and have the faith of a child….never questioning, never doubting, just Jump!
With Love- April
Luke 18:17 Truly I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God like a child shall not enter it.